Story of: M | O | G | J

I’m not sure that my exes were into tease and denial, but that’s what they got from me.

When I first realized this I smiled. It makes so much sense! 

Sure, the D/s dynamics were non-existent in those relationships but it is pretty neat to see parts of myself that I am actively indulging in being manifested in my past. 

What do they call that? Destiny? Maybe, maybe not (definitely yes). I feel like I was meant for this work. 

I look back at my life and I find that there has been so much that has come full circle. It may have been a skill I developed, a personality trait, or something I studied or learned because it intrigued me but I find that there is a lot from my past that I can apply to my work as a dominatrix. 

I am so glad I have found BDSM and that I work as a professional dominant. 

I decided to write about this part of my past because the realization of it made me giddy and happy.

I denied them constantly, teasing them often and only engaging in the things that I was interested in. 

Back when I used to date men, before I realized that I’m queer and kinky AF. 

See, it’s not that I’m not attracted to men, it’s that men are only attractive to me when they’re submitting and engaging in power exchange with me.

M’s Tease and Denial

He could make me laugh so hard. I loved that about him. Nerdy, fun, timid and shy. 

Consistently respectful of my wants, needs and boundaries. He made it easy to be around him. 

One day we found ourselves alone at my house. I lifted my shirt to flash him with my pretty breasts. 

His eyes grew wide. I saw his gaze trace my every outline. Intensely focusing on me.  

He didn’t touch them nor did he ask for permission to. I knew he wouldn’t, that he’d just stare and admire. Another thing I really liked about him. What a sweetheart. 

O’s Tease and Denial

He always had a raging hard on for me and it was never allowed to come out and play. 

He once said “I feel god when I’m with you”. Literally! It’s so satisfying to look back on this relationship and remember him saying that. 

He isn’t the reason I use God/dess honorifics, in case you were wondering, but what a fitting phrase to hear my mind echoing back. 

There were countless nights of us making out in his car. His zipped up arousal dying to escape, to come out for some fresh air. 

But it never got out, though I would constantly brush up against it, sit on it or feel the denim bulge with my palm. 

His d-ck never saw the moonlight. (I hope you can appreciate that pun). 

G’s Tease and Denial

G was a tease himself as well, which made it even more enjoyable to deflate his ego. Yes, he was good looking but the truth was that he wanted me more than I wanted him.

One day we were alone at his house and we decided to go to his parents’ bedroom to lay on their bed. How shameless of us. 

We got in bed then got naked. He began to take in all of my beauty. He fell in love with every inch of me.  

I let him look for a good while. I wanted him to see all of my radiant glory. He couldn’t stop staring.

I wanted him to be obsessed with my body so I could really enjoy cutting him off whenever I decided to put my clothes back on. 

Our relationship started not too long before he joined the military. His passion for me grew exponentially while he was in training. 

He wrote to me often. His letters were filled with want and desire for me as he would describe all the grueling training he was having to go through.  

I still have those letters. It’s so nice to read them once in a while. 

I was his happy place.

J’s Tease and Denial

Oh, J, the most denied of them all.

He would actually beg for sex. My answer was always no. An incredibly irritating habit of his.

Please don’t do that. If someone says no then don’t ask again. It’s an annoying thing that can easily turn into sexual harassment. 

Though I would consider it for a scene, if negotiated beforehand. Within the context of a tease and denial scene it does sound fun. 

Imagine, you ask, I say no and repeat. Actively and continuously denied.

You will never see me naked.

The difference between then and now is that you’re submissive and I’ve fully embraced my dominant self.

I will continue to use my body and femininity as a powerful tool to bring men to their knees. 

Tease and denial is about control and power exchange. 

I have something that you want (and you want it bad), but I choose to only dangle it in front of you. 

What is “it”?

My body. My attention. My touch. 

I want you to feel like you’re so close to having it. Or tasting it, or touching it. 

But I will never grant you the privilege of having that which you desire. 

What do you want most? Tell me, so I can make sure to put it just out of your reach. *insert evil grin*

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